if I betray these words

this was a heavy read, maybe amplified by me listening to it as an audiobook. it also felt extra relatable bc so many of the hospitals mentioned are local to me

the title was taken from a variation of the hippocratic oath, said to make a commitment to not harm your patietns under any circumstances. I thought this book a good reminder that having differing/opposing priorites to the (medical) system you work in can lead straight to burnout, and that even the most well-intentioned workarounds can just make things worse for you or your patients

brb as I look for mentors to help me burst the rest of my bubble. there’s so much more to medicine than what’s in the textbooks and anki decks

lessons in chemistry

usually I stick to my “read before watching” rule, but I either didn’t know or didn’t care that this was a book when I put on the apple tv show. and I think that worked out for the better in this case

I did enjoy the read, but I think there were added features in the show that made it even better. like the use of race to add depth to the story and the characters, I pretty much kept the same assignments and kept it pushing. {it also really helped with all the rowing words bc wtheck is an erg}. I absolutely enjoyed Six Thirty more in the book, and a lot of his motivations made more sense without feeling corny. on the flip, I thought the process of Mad being born and named was better delivered in the show. tomato tomato

the story does have sad undertones, even without Calvin passing. that’s always gonna suck. but bc Elizabeth wasn’t someone to sit in her feelings and slow down, we had instance after instance of her going through it with very little relief. and that’s real

it made me laugh a lot. get mad and have audacity! life is for living so make sure to do a bit of that